I really want to know when I noticed the first time that time flies by soooo quickly. I remember as a school kid a week was loooong - even a school day was long. Holidays were also long and a year was wayyyy tooo long. I remember I was happy 4 weeks before my birthday- happy and excited - I was happy 4 weeks before easter and 4 weeks before christmas and time didn't go by.... Those weeks turned out to be years in my thoughts.
And now - what is a year - a month - a week? I wanted to do sooo much this week - so many promises I've made - making calls - doing a visit - meeting up with my girl friend and nothing - really nothing of that all happened. Maybe I am too lazy for this world lately? Maybe I am overloaded with all that stuff that happens here all the time? Even my week was not packed with lots of work and even since 3 weeks I have a char now who helps me with cleaning the house I am sitting here and sometimes have no clue where or how to start with all my work. I want to run away - when I started something and work on that for 2 hours or so I have another idea what I can do now so I run away and sometimes start to work with something different.... Sooooo unorganized that I hate myself for that. Maybe thats the reason I am doing hard on myself to get my stuff done these times. Funny thing is when I am really under pressure - and I mean real pressure - then I can work like hell - everything is fine and my things are done on time. But I don't want to give myself pressure my whole life so when I know I have time to do this and that - I "play" around and have more important things to do - for example jump up and play the piano - go downstairs to run on my treadmill - do some calls which would have postponed easily....
My accounting did keep me busy longer that I expected - due to some problems with my computer (for whatever reasons a folder disappeared by updating the programm and the customer service is unable to help. )So that meant I had to do my accounting for the whole year again!!!!!! Shit shit shit!!!!
Never the less I finally came almost to an end.
Today I tried to book an online ticket for the train home tomorrow - were told that "due to an unexpected failure we cannot accept your booking - please try again later..".. I t ried - 10 times - always the same - then called and got told that the person on the phone isn't god (oh really) and has no clue when the problem will be solved. Did cost me another 2 1/2 hours. For me that s enought for today - will switch off my computer now and go out with the dogs - sunny but could outside.
