Freitag, 5. Februar 2010
Montag, 25. Januar 2010
Skiing weekend
Mittwoch, 20. Januar 2010
Help for Haitian people...
Then a couple was interviewed - they adopted a baby boy from a Haitian orphanage - it was the first visit to "their" son and there were some paperworks to get though, left "their" baby boy to finally take him "home" to Germany in April. They left Port - au Prince on a plane toward America (to spend a few days there) and short before they arrived in America they read on the screen about that terrible earthquake. They were shocked and tried to reach the orphanage - no chance. After a few days they were called that all children in this orphanage has survived - without any injuries. All children will be flown out the next week. And the next discussion started - as sooo many children have lost their parents by that earthquake a lot of people thought about helping these children with adopting them. (I don't think that this people had just the idea to adopt a child - I think this people tried hard to adopt a child and in germany its sooo difficult - you have to be younger than 40 years - they want to know your income exactly and and and...). I am sure these people who are really interested in an adoption would care for their child as good as they can and I also think that this child would have a "better" life as in Haiti right now- although they're older than 40 years. It's not the current situation in Haitit - it will need years to built up everything - hospitals, schools, orphanage.
I am totally with the people from the organisation and orphanage - all children are in a confused situation and everything is new for them - the loss of their parents and and and. They say that this children have enough to do with this situation right now and it would be terrible for them to handle another situation like an adoption and new parents. Okay, for the first time it will be hard for them but isn't it a good idea to offer them a better life? Don't they have a right of medical care (if needed), a playschool and a school? I think all these things need years to built up. Shouldn't we give them the chance to "be a child? I am sure they would have a better life.Thats my opinion and I would like to know what you're thinking of that.
The other thing is I would really love to help the Haitian people - as I am not a doctor who can help them or don't belong to some organisations like "Welthungerhilfe" I thought I donate money. But I would love to help more - any ideas? It doesn't make sense if I would fly to Haiti and do some photos (that is my profession but I don't think that helps in any way).
Sometimes I wish I would do something honorary to help people - I don't know what....
Dienstag, 19. Januar 2010
It suddenly dawned on me....
After I worte yesterdays entry my mind was remained of the situation I wrote about and I wonder why I am sometimes disapointed of people. I think I expect too much of others - but honestly what I am expecting is a "normal behavior" or just normal little things.
On my desk I have a calendar and there are all relevant birthday dates listed - so every morning I check my calendar and if there is a birthday I call or send a message. And I am looking forward for a call or message on my birthday too. There is a friend who doesn't call or send a message on my birthday for the last 3 years. On her birthday last year I just started to write a short message and suddenly I thought: No - this yeear I will "forget" her birthday (hub said this is childish because I remembered her birthday but anyway...) I didn't send a message and 4 weeks later we met in a restaruant. The first thing she shouted out: "This year you've forgotten my birthday": I started to grin and replied: " As you did for my birthday the last 3 years". She stared at me - shook her head - then nodded and said: "Yes Kerstin that's right - message arrived. Maybe I will hear from her next birthday - maybe not. Maybe its childish - I felt great by that.
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Yesterdays piano lesson was great - have two new songs to play. One classic and one "modern". Like them both very much - one is called "Vivace" and the other "Unchained melody" - it's a song which was sung on our wedding day at church and until this time I had myself under control but when this song started there was no stop for my tears - they run down on my face and I was sooo touched.
Next week I am going to see my parents and sister, grandmom, brother in law, niece and some friends again - cannot wait. Maybe I will meet a woman I never met before - we "got to know" each other via internet - sometimes you find like-minded people this way. I met some (now) friends that way before - it's very interesting.
Since last wednesday my favourite radio station Antenne Bayern is doing a music marathon- because of the year 2010 they broadcasted (and do still) 2010 songs which were chosen by listeners. BTW my favourite singer Bryan Adams was listed 16 times so far - there are 265 songs to come... Love sitting in front of the computer and listening to that songs....
Montag, 18. Januar 2010
How things can go wrong :(
We have been closest friends for more than 13 yeears here in Munich. You all know the older you are the less easy is it to make friends. So I was very very happy to find a girlfriend and soulmate and we solved every problem together - heartsickness and whatever... Every day we called each other - sometimes we spent the weekends together - every year we spend a few days together on holidays. But I found out that it's mostly the same: When a man "enters" your life your life and your time changes. But when Achim "entered" my life we all three (Achim, my friend and me) could handle that great. I told Achim that I need my time with my friend and the other way round. So no problem at all....
A few years ago I felt that something changed with my friend - asked her if something is wrong with our "relationship" or if I did something bad/wrong to her. But her answer was: No, everything is okay... But I felt something between us - it wasn't the same. I tried to find it out - couldn't find any sign.. Then she didn't call back, didn't answered my emails and "closed her door".
I know her very very good and I saw this behavior with other of her "friends" a few times and never thought that she could do something like that to me. But I was wrong. In our friendship she every now and then was a little different and it was always me who asked if something is wrong or if I did something wrong. But the last time I thought: No, why always me? Why do I have to solve the problem again (when there is a problem)?. She never tried to ask me when there was something a litte "wrong" between us. So I decided not to ask for this time. And what shall I say? She also did nothing and that means - no more friendship for more than 3 years now. First time for me it was very sad - I missed her - it was like a relationship has ended. I shared so much with her - she shared so much with me and I missed her calls and emails..... with the time it went better but honestly sometimes I miss her bitterly. So often I thought about sending her an email or a SMS or call her on the phone and then - why me again?
So sometimes I ask myself what can I do? Hub said so often that he saw it was always me who worked for that relationship and he thinks for her its not important enough to fight for this friendship. Maybe he is right. So sad that there is a broken friendship withouth knowing the reasons....
Sonntag, 17. Januar 2010
Weeeeekend.....
Donnerstag, 14. Januar 2010
Healthy living and eating :)
After hating my body for the last few years yesterday I decided to "make peace" with it - inspired from two other women who "washed my brain" a little. The first - who is a close friend to me - talked to me for ages and told me what I am doing wrong. The other one - by reading her her blog I found the "mistake" I made so long. And I found out: Accept yourself then your body will accept you... Bingo.
Therefore I promised my body not to bother him with not giving him the food which he needs or with eating too less. Went to the grocery and bought lots of fresh veggies, fruits, fish, noodles and lots more. And now we both are going to be a "team" again - ran on the threadmill for 6 kilometers without any problems and lost 300 gramms over night! And I have eaten a lot yesterday.
This morning I went to the dentist (nothing happened - just a check up) and as it was early in the morning the city center was soooo quiet. I love the city when it' s crowded but for doing some shopping I loved it quiet that morning. No queues - not that much people, shops almost empty.... and "bang" - I found a
pair of shoes - winter boots. (After being told last week that " we don't have any winter boots right now" - aha - When do they have winter boots? In summer?)
Today is my house cleaning day - not that I love it that much but no one else there who could do that for me. But inspired and in a quite good mood as I am I think it will be done very easily.
I am really looking forward for the weekend - if the weather is okay me and hub will go for skiing on sunday. Haven't done skiing since last March a snowboarder crashed into me and the result of 2 broken ribs and a conclusion (me). But as I recognized it wasn't my fault at all I am not afraid doing skiing again.
Mittwoch, 13. Januar 2010
Nachdem ich vom Einkaufen zurückkam, war ich ziemlich erledigt - und hatte mir gerade überlegt, mir eine Tasse Tee zu machen und mich ein Stündchen hinzusetzen und zu lesen - da regte sich mein "innerstes" und sprach zu mir: "Ich denke, Du wolltest jeden Tag einen Bericht schreiben und vorallem jeden Tag ein wenig Sport machen". Ich antwortete: Ja, ich bin aber gerade recht müde und schlapp". Mein Innerstes" Und wo ist das Problem, glaubst Du nicht, Du kannst Deine Schlappheit etwas reduzieren, wenn Du Deinen Kreislauf etwas anregst? Ich antwortete: Und wenn ich dann unten im Keller vor lauter Schlappheit vom Laufband falle?" Mein Innerstes:"Du fällst nicht vom Laufband - Du bist noch NIE vom Laufband gefallen und wirst es auch heute nicht". Ich:"Okay okay, ich ziehe mich ja schon um": Mein Innerstes: "Siehste, es geht doch - und solltest Du Dich auf dem Laufband wirklich unwohl fühlen, dann kannst Du immer noch aufhören - aber raff Dich auf": Ich: "na gut..."
Und was soll ich sagen: Ich bin meine 5 Kilometer gerannt - danach war ich superstolz auf mich.
Später am abend telefonierte ich mit meiner kleinen 5-jährigen Nichte und sie erzählte mir 20 Minuten lang, daß sie mich vermißt und es wäre doch sooo schön, wenn wir in ihre Nachbarschaft ziehen würden und sie nicht immer 3 Stunden im Auto sitzen muß, wenn sie mich sehen will. Da geht einem doch das Herz auf, oder??? Ich bin dann relativ früh ins Bett, weil ich wirklich nicht so 100% fit war/bin. Vielleicht brüte ich irgend etwas aus. Habe aber sehr gut geschlafen und bin heute früh relativ ausgeschlafen um halb acht aus dem Bett geklettert. Weiter gehts heute mit Fotobücher fertig stellen und danach Gemüse und Obst einkaufen.
Ich werde meine Ernährung umstellen - mehr dazu morgen - ich bin hächst motiviert!!!
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Yesterday it was a really nice day outside - sun was shining and it stopped snowing - everything outside was white and the temperatures were okay - around -5 degrees. I should have worked on my photobooks but outside it looked so beautiful that I took my cam and did some really nice shots. Later on I went to the grocery and when I came back I felt tired . Right when I thought I could do an hours break with a nice cup of tea and my book my innermost talked to me: I thought you would do a daily update here on your blog and a daily run on the threadmill". me: "yes of course but right now I am very tired" My Innermost " And you think you feel better when you sit down - do you think while reading your tiredness will go away? Don't you think you can do something against - for example run for a while?" Me:" And what if I collapse while running on the threadmill?" My innermost:" Have you ever collaped while running on the threadmill? No - you didn't and you won't" Me:" Okay, okay, I am on the way to wear my sport outfit" My Innermost:" See- thats the right way. And if you should feel not okay during running - no prob you can stop immediately----" Me:" Okay, you're right - i am on my way". And what shall I say? I felt very good after running 5 Kilometers and I was proud of me....to beat the inner temptation.
Later in the evening my 5 years old niece called and told me 20 minutes how she misses me and why I can't move in her neighbourhood. It would be soo great if she hasn't sit in the car for a 3 hours drive to see mee. Isn't that nice???
I went to bed not too late because I felt a little tired but after a pleasant sleep I woke up that morning feeling better and got up at 07.30 Uhr to do my work. I have to go outside later on to buy some water and fresh fruit and veggies - I decided to change my nutrition and right now I am most motivated... Lets see how it goes.
Dienstag, 12. Januar 2010
Es ist richtig Winter - it's really winter
Aber seit gestern morgen schneit es ununterbrochen, nicht heftig, aber stetig fallen kleine weiße Flöckchen auf die Erde. Ich liebe es - das ist Winter. Und bei uns wird dann gleich wieder in den Medien von einem "Jahrhundertwinter" gesprochen - hey, es ist ein gaaanz normaler Winter, wie es sie früher auch gab.
Gestern hatte ich Klavierstunde und es hat richtig Spaß gemacht - ich habe eine sehr nette- etwas ältere - Klavierlehrerin und wir haben ein "Abkommen" - einmal darf ich mir ein Lied raussuchen, welches ich gerne spielen würde und beim nächsten Mal besteht sie wieder auf etws Klassisches wie Mozart, Beethoven oder Schuhmann. So haben wir einen netten Mix von Modern und Klassik und jeder ist glücklich :)
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Montag, 11. Januar 2010
Schnee Schnee Schnee - snow snow snow
Sonntag, 10. Januar 2010
Sonntagsbericht - sundays update
Dann hab ich Frühstück gemacht und der Herr Gemahl kam an den Tisch - ausgiebiges Frühstück und danach habe ich weiter an meinem Fotobuch gearbeitet - Achim hat seine Ablage gemacht - alles, was man an solch trüben Tagen tut.
Später haben wir uns aufgerafft und sind eine große Runde spazieren gegangen - es waren zwar nur -5 Grad, das hat sich aber wie - 15 angefühlt. Hatte die Kamera dabei, aber keine schönen Fotos bzw. Motive :(
Nachdem wir gestern Besuch von Freunden hatten und die mir gleich etwas Arbeit mitgebracht haben, habe ich eine nette Diashow zusammengestellt und auf DVD gebrannt.
Gerade komme ich vom Laufband - wann werde ich mal wieder in meiner alten Routine sein? 5 km in 37 Minuten ist nichts, auf das man stolz sein könnte. Aber ich pirsche mich halt langsam wieder ran.
Nachdem ich morgen wieder Klavierunterricht habe, muß ich jetzt noch ein Stündchen üben - mir ist das peinlich, wenn die Klavierlehrerin kommt und ich hab in den Ferien nichts geübt...
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Not a sunday at all - no sun in sight - anyway. Woke up at eight in the morning and got up at half past eight to have my first cup of coffee. Read some pages of my new book from Joy Fielding.Then prepared breakfast for hubby and me (he went downstairs at half past nine....) Later I worked on my photobook and hub did some paperwork what must have been done.
Although it was cold and grey outside we did a long walk. Temperature was -5 degrees but it felt like - 15 degrees. Had my cam with my but no nice shoots.
As we had friends around yesterday and the brought me some work I later did a slideshow for them and burned it on DVD.
Right now I come from walking on the threadmill and ask myself when will I be "me" again? Running 5 km in 37 mins is nothing you can be proud of. So lots more to do.
As I have piano lessons tomorrow again (after a break of 3 weeks of because of holidays) I have to play a little because I hate it when my teacher comes and I cannot play what he told me I should play... Sometimes then I feel like a pupil who stands in front of his teacher LOL
Samstag, 9. Januar 2010
...grau in grau und ungemütlich
Nachdem wir heute abend Gäste bekommen, werde ich mich jetzt aber mal langsam in Richtung Küche begeben und den Fisch in sein letztes "Bett" legen - ein leckeres Gemüsebett.
After getting up this morning we sat at the breakfast table for one and a half hour (as always on weekends) I love that - sitting together and chatting. During the week we have a short breakfast (two cups of coffee for me and a cup of tea for my husband Achim). Then he is off to work and I go upstairs to my office and start my work. Then later in the morning I have a something sweet (cake or something like that) or a slice of bread with some Salami while standing and eating very fast (I know that is very unealthy but maybe its time for some more intentions I made already
One of these are eating in a healthy way and doing some sports on a regular basis. Its funny how you can get your engines on by reading from others. Here I am following a blog of a very admirable woman who is writing in such a lovely and interesing style. Among a lot of other things she is walking on the threadmill and did some thousand kilometers so far..... chapeau!!! I have been on threadmill for 3 days (not the whole days - lol) after a break of 8 weeks and I was surprised how hard it is to get "used" to that again... But hopefully after a few days I am "back to my good old days"....
Right now I am sitting in my office and should work for what I am paid for but today I love to get interrupted by phone, by hub who needs something or by "stumbeling" through the world wide web... But as we are having a dinner with friends this evening I should go downstairs to "give the fish his last bed - a veggie bed"
Freitag, 8. Januar 2010
Freitag - mein Lieblingstag - friday - my favourite day of the week
Seit Tagen spricht kein Mensch mehr von etwas anderem als dem großen Schneechaos, welches uns jetzt am Wochenende heimsuchen soll. Ich kanns mir nicht so recht vorstellen - wir hier in München sind selten von solchen Schneemassen betroffen, wobei ich es liebe (Gut, ICH muß morgens nicht mein Auto freischaufeln und in die Arbeit rutschen - mein Büro ist im Haus).
Ich wünsche allen ein schönes Wochenende
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What a mornin - I needed "ages" to get my body and brain into gears - the only thing what helped were three of the glasses above (hope I haven't uploaded a glas of wine or something like that ...).
After my bathes and kitchen cleaning yesterday I fell into sleep in front of the tv at 9.30 pm and today I am in a "no cleaning at all -mood". And today I have to do a lot for what I am paid for - doing a photobook and in the afternoon I am going to do a children photoshooting in the kindergarden.
For days all are talking about the upcoming snow chaos but honestly I don't believe in it. Here in Munich we seldom have such tons of snow - btw I love it (okay I don't have to shovel snow to find my car to drive to work - my office is in our house).
Wishing you all a great weekend
Donnerstag, 7. Januar 2010
Ran an den Dreck....
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As I have many English speaking friends out here I try to translate a few sentences: Todays topic is a very "woman-ish" one: Cleaning
I decided to clean the house from top to bottom - today my "project" is called kitchen. I have to clear out all cupboards and shelves and clean them (and to thow away some cups and glassware). Then off to Ikea to buy some new stuff - I love to have new things - no need to be expensive - but new year needs a few new things.
On tuesday I was sewing new curtains (one thing I never thought I could do but in the end they are looking very nice) and I am very productive these days. Yesterday we here in Bavaria had a day off but I spend all my energy to work on photobooks for my customers and right now I am "on time" again - thank god.
Mittwoch, 6. Januar 2010

Eigentlich wollte ich ja regelmäßig schreiben, was meinen Tagesablauf angeht und schon in der ersten Woche im neuen Jahr bin ich mir selbst untreu geworden. Nachdem ich mich hier aber noch nicht so auskenne, sei es mir verziehen - vorallem verzeihe ich mir selbst :)
Aber jetzt will ich es wirklich versuchen - ebenso wie ich mir fest vorgenommen habe, bis April 3 Kilo (und diese dauerhaft) abzunehmen und vorallem auch wieder regelmäßig Sport zu machen.
Und mit dem Sport habe ich heute gleich mal angefangen - nachdem wir in Bayern heute ja Feiertag hatten und das Wetter auch nicht so besonders war, war es ein relativ fauler Tag. Nun gut, so kann man es nicht sagen, ich habe heute mindestens 5 Stunden am PC gesessen uns an unserem Urlaubsfotobuch gearbeitet. Ich bin richtig gut voran gekommen, das kann man auch nur machen, wenn man in der richtigen Stimmung ist. Ich habe knappe 100 Seiten erarbeitet und das ist schon mal sehr gut.
Nachdem das Mittagessen relativ bescheiden (eine Nudelsuppe) ausfiel und der Kaffee dann nur mit einem Stück Stollen getrunken werden konnte (ich bin süchtig nach "Papas Stollen"), bin ich danach in den Keller gegangen und hab mich eine halbe Stunde auf dem Laufband amüsiert. Ich muß zu meiner Schande gestehen, daß ich schon seit Anfang November nichts mehr gemacht habe und das heute auch etwas gemerkt habe. Nach einer halben Stunde und gerade mal 4 km wars aus bei mir. Gut - man muß sich ja nicht gleich total verausgaben - außerdem brauche ich ja auch noch Steigerungen. Was soll ich mir mein Ziel gleich sooo hoch stecken? Ich gehe es langsam aber regelmäßig an. Morgen werde ich mich am Crosstrainer verausgaben und übermorgen gibt es eine halbe Stunde BBP - wir wollen doch mal sehen, ob wir dem Hüftgold nicht die Rote Karte zeigen können. Also ihr seht - ich habe viel vor und hoffe, ich krieg das einigermaßen hin.